Oh God, hear my cry!

Is this normal life? Is this really what you would ask of me?
Is it okay to be sad, mad, guilty?
To be alone, all alone.
To adopt strangers as family?
But sometimes I just want reality.
I don't want a replacement, I want family.
Why must you break my heart for those so far away?
Why do I have a peace inside and tears on my face?
I want to understand this love and at my core I do
But human understanding only goes so far and my logic says,  "enough!".
Help me to lean on You in those time.
Help me to surrender to Your will.
You're love is unflawed, clear and precise.
You are the example I can look to in my brokenness.
I need to look no further than You.
Sending Your Love and perfect plan to a world full of hate
Betrayed, beaten, killed but not dead forever.
You turned your back because of perfect love, how I want that perfect love!
So heal my heart, help me to love those You love.
Fulfill the desires of my heart.
Give me family where no blood is shared.
Give me love where no bond is formed.
Give me peace when sadness is all I feel.
Be my comfort, be my resting place, be my eyes.
Oh God, give me a love that surpasses the ties that bond me.